Thursday, March 15, 2007
Is this normal? I want to be happy!
Is it normal to not like your job? I mean, I would love to love my job. I love the work I do but there are things about it that make me unhappy. Then when I tell someone they just tell me that everyone hates their job. I don't want to be one of those people. I want to be one of the few that can truly say they love their job. I don't know if I'm over-reacting on some stuff but I feel like I shouldn't be here. I feel like the work I do isn't appreciated. Honestly, to me, recognition is really important. If I don't get a 'thank you' or 'good job' I feel like I'm not doing well and that stresses me out. I just want to know that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. And if I do something wrong I would like to be told in a way that will help me not make me feel worse. I don't want to just be told that I can't do part of my job until I talk to someone. I'd rather be told that someone would like to go over some more training with me because maybe I wasn't shown something correctly or I didn't understand something. There are a lot of things you learn as an employee that make you think of what you will and won't do if you're ever in management, I wonder if people ever really do follow through with what they shouldn't do when they get promoted. I feel like so many things are going wrong here and I don't like that feeling. We've been here for 4 months and they've already cut our commissions, I've been looked over for a promotion, our overtime got totally nixed, we are being constantly watched by the maintenance staff, I do way more than my title requires of me and don't get a thank you for any of it and our medical insurance stinks. I know that I am a hard worker and a dedicated worker but that never seems to matter when they look for someone new. I'm always the one that is looked over. I want to learn and I have a passion to learn but apparently that isn't good enough to be promoted. It really does bother me a lot that I got passed over. I've tried talking to my manager and that didn't help. Now they are just trying to hide the truth from me by giving her a 'different' title so they 'dont step on any toes' (those being my toes, thinking that I won't quit then) I love our apartment here and getting a discount on it helps a lot, along with discounted cable and free water/sewer and not driving but I just don't know if my happiness is worth it. I know the last few posts I have made have been all depressing and about work but I can't make things better. I thought they were for a day but then it just goes back again. So I'm really sorry for all the depressinness, I just can't sleep and need to type.
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